>>How can i Smile with the tears in my eyes That's how i feel when im mIssing You
Yesterday had a good long talk with cheryl..thanks for telling me what you were upset about and how u feel yeah..i think that totally allowed me to understand better..cos im the sort who prefers like sorting it out rationally..cos im a big fat stubborn freak..i cant listen when im angry.. m eating instant noodles for 5days inna row!shit!My hair is so gonna drop in like 5mins..i mean v.soon..i have been eating like it for 5 days inna row..and yes..think stace really upset and all...yesterday as pretty much a screwed day..when we went to meet stace,mich and leong and i was with jem..then she was really upset and all..and so was jem and so was mich and everyoen else..then i got really upset and all..but i gues we have enough of it..
OKay we are doing random check for normal forms..did really slowly today and told jamie about alot of things..but i guess i felt much better and all..and m ydear cous val apparently sms wrong person wrong msg..as in the number was no longer in use then i didnt del..great so some BLOODY idiot palyed along..i think that person shd ROT IN HELLL!!ROT BIG TIME!OKay but now i think stacvey's fine and all..so i think that's important!me n jem are like so slacking ...and yeah i think the boss is piss with us..aiya that neh neh..
Suddenly i feel very lucky..i mean i never had to worry that there be no food on the table..or that i will go hungry or i have to work to survive..very scary..and to htink yesterday i went on shopping spree to buy dad and stace's presents and bought my mom a knitted shirt..my bro a nice double layered shirt..to think i spent $70++ in a few hours..cos i never treasured money and how much it wld mean to me..cos u c..im a miser..yes..self declared miser...then i save save..but when i spent i just spend..ohh my..i better save.. so stace.anytime u need my help..feel free to ask okay?n yes IF ANYTIME..U LOSE EVERYTHING..JUS REM U HAVNT LOSE ME AND THAT I TRY MY BEST TO GIVE U EVERTG I HAVE..i try my best okay? hmm..yeap...thanks for being there my FAMOUS 5 friends! im so glad to have u all..w/o u i just crumble..thanks so much!!
>>>You're the one that lights my fire You're the one that keeps me strong You're the one that I depend on When my world is goin' wrong
THIS LYRICS VERYMEANINGFUL...
>>>What does it matter to wait for u a thousand and 1 times If in the end you eliminate the time.... What matters is to see you in SILENCE, And to know that prehaps without having you... I HAVE YOU.........
4:58 PM In the words of jo
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Heard alot of things yesterday..and realised there are alot of people reading my blog..so oh well..did not really have much reaction mich..now im more of the har?urm okay lor..nvm lahz...think lotsa bad things happened to my friends..feeling all mixed up inside..kinda think i am partly to blame for all the things that have happened.. ohh well..i will take it in my stride..i have far more paitence than anyone ever know..gona go to the filling room now..and bess..if u ever read this..really paiseh i put u inna spot..alrightY?
Okay...so we speed file 200 registration forms..and now im so hungry i can eat a COW..okay sorry bess.. hmm yah think i m goin to eat my instant noods soon..my hair is so gona come off..ohh man i can feel my stomach juice like grinding..ahH~ the noodles did it..im so happy now..ohh man!wonder what's for lunch.. YAY later im going shopping for my dad's present and stacey's present!! gonna like go speed shopping cos i already know what i want to buy..then scoot off home to eat my mom's yummy cooking and watch "chemistry"
i have been waiting for that show for ages..and well it would gimme some faith in love..haha how rubbish.. wads with everyone and guava!??EWW!big time EWW..i mean if u have a dad who cuts fruits that are as tall as mount fuji then urm u wld get what i mean!done with the mee thingy..now gonna like do that darn filling aagain!
Okay it lunchtime...think im going down to buy my lunch...lazy to wAlk...okay jst had this sucky hokkien prawn mee!!i dont even see any pRAWN?!?! and it was so oily that every time u scoop the noodle it sound as though u r walking thru some muddy jungle..it goes BLOOP BLOOP BLOOP!!! ewww!! i kinda wanna puke af that cos i feel as though im eating rubber bands in OIL!!!!yuck!heng me n val bought tom yam soup!so we r both sharing it now..okay i so feLL asleep and man i regret it cos hwen i woke up my whole left side of my body went numb..and it was so pain n val had to POKE it! ouch!then i almost like fell fLat on the floor..now it's still wobbly! hey WOBBLE WEE!friggin cold now..just ate ice..think the green tea is not taking effect yet...
Yay!i learnt the bottle thingy..u noe u clap yr hands and move the bottle thing?i learnt it from Val..then me n jem n gen n vaL were all learning...when we were suppose to sort!!!yay!!!now i just need to practice it..more often..then i be an expert!!okay Val..went to the loo 4 the 100th time~..cos she drank like 2 cans of green tea!and yes we r bumming ard...as usual..BOSS is not here!wahahah!ok we are now in the process of listening the "songs for cash" contest!!hope we win!$200!!!!dammit some idiot girl called and din noe the last sonG!like gREAT!should have just let us get thru man!dammit! okay..it's gonna be 5pm..gonna find michie mich!!and go shoppg with her and my cous!yeah....
Love changes,changes Everything Love Makes u fly,BREAK yr wings Love changes everything...
4:55 PM In the words of jo
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
>>I took for granted all the time That i thought would last somehow.. I hear the laughter i taste the tears But i cant get near u know Ohh cant u see it baby You got me goin crazy Wherever u go wadeva u do I'll be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you....
Tolerate..And Restrict... these 2 wOrds ironically would mean so much to me..u Know my motto says nothing is impossible..i kinda think some things are truly IMpossible..i dunno..been alittle Muddle-headed these few days..half of me wanna bash someone and the other half just feel that NO ..cos im civilise and i should think rationally..it should be the boss at work lahz huh?I have to put a wide smile on my face and u know put up a Fake front but well in the end...im just like a fool..
Enough of that..VAL got through 98.7fm toDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!ohh ma gwad!!!ohh great..it was so exciting man man man!!!!!!!!!!! and yeah wao wao..mala spoke to DAN THE MAN!gad..she had to translate "gdmoprng..where is my horn" in TAmil..she did it perfectly!!and yeah in the end val got 2 tix to some bruce movie!!!!!!!!!!!waOOO!!!i mean i was so excited...not as if i was talking but just being there was lke wah kauUU!okay dammit..now im trying on class 95fm "SOngs For CAsh!" $300!!!i wanna WIN!then i quit working..n slack at home!! okay jus had mee siam for urm..2nd round of breakfast?!? wah im gonna put on weight.. *checks boney self* hmmmm..whahaah!just ate vitamins...mmm..ohh we were dicussing about our last day at work and how we are gonna be chiobus..coOL man..
OHh i must say this before i continue.. Hey stace and val..sorry i made u all worry like hell for me..i didnt know..SORRY SORRY okay?i was talking to my brother then i didnt check my phone!sorry i gave you people such a rude shock..or worry or wadeva it is..sorry!! hmm yeap..drank gREEn tea..hmmm... feeling the high effects kicking in..ahh~ yeSt i drank green tea too and i went like suPer high as tho im on alcohol!!!i went crazy..i just laugh and laugh and laugh...as though im suffering from clinical depressioN!wao!u shOUld have seen!!
Listening to enrique cd now..and it suddenly hit me..what's your idea of romance??People buying sweet little things for you?meeting you all the time?saying the 3 words.. [which is quite common]?being sweeped off yr feet by prince charming?being in some beach place?or just physical acts are enough for you?For some it's defintely some of the above..let me tell you what's mine..jUs a simple dinner..and sit some place and chill..talk about friends and family and just being honest..but currently im like the show "chemistry" i no longer believe in love..i dont..cause this kinda things only happen in shows...prove me wrong...so suE me..this whole being so in LOVE thing..n reality..it's urm very different i think..shit enrique's song is getting into me..but think about it yeah people..but mich...continue believing in love..you are a sweet girl and fate will sure be kind to you.. im different..im not like ost girls who put on dresses like a normal thing to do..i would just like blush like mad if anyone sees me in one..dont know why..i just lOVE JEANS!hmm..so i do...i prefer being comfortable and looking gd at the same time rather than looking gd..but dying of heat or itchy-ness cos of the lacy parts of the dress...that's me...so avril... heeee ... GENN!!!STOP roLLING yr eyes!! *gorges gen's eyes out n eats it!* *smack Lips!* haha!
oKAY SO we went boon tong kee and had lunch..n i had paddle pop ice cream..*changes in leong's voice*"HMMMMM so yUMMYYYYY""stamps foot"...hahaha..doing entry all alone..how sad..geneva and shirlyn are like staying in my 2nd home now.. aka the filling room..they camping lahz..haha! ok so they are doin filling in there..but they are staying in my home what!LISTENING TO MY CDS NOW..GOT REALLY NICE SONG quotes..dunno which ones to choose..what's worse is that im indecisiVe!! ohh great..i have mellowed now..the effects pf the green tea seemed to have worn off..im sedated..hahah.. hmm..now listening to "bAby dont u break my heart slow"..stace rem this song..sec 3 eh...
oKAY PHEW I did all my 30 forms in like lightling speed so that i can blog..so yeah left with 15mins more before im done with work to blog..today did urm 53 in total..quite little..yawnz..not too bad..xcept my back and legs ache big time from sitting in the same position like for urm 2 hours..kinda have a numb feeling..on my leg lah!
CheryL: im not piss with anytg yeah..sorry i seem distant yeah..im fine.. smilez..u smile too..
Michie:went shopping with mommy ah!NEH NEH POK!i wanna go auntyyY~ thank god yr okay with yr mom! =) wad u bot..anything for me? *peep into the bag* hmm..hahah
>>If yr hrt's not in it for real Pls dont try to fake what u dont feel If love's already gone It's not fair to lead me on Cos i would give the whole world for you Anything you ask of me i do.. But i wont ask you to stay I rather walk away If yr hrts not in it
5:01 PM In the words of jo
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Does it mean that you keep pressing the calculator means you are nervous!?? okay stacey was like "tak-g" the damn calculator..stace arh..hmm.."R u tinking wad im thinking B1?" aNS:yes im B2!! muahaha.. yesterday was a pretty much a mundane kinda day except i did alot of thinking and all..an dread a book..which is rare unless the book is a bestseller or something..anyhow reading kept me sane and all..so yes got everything sorted out or so i think...just hope mich and her mom's fine now..anyway sorry to all my friends if they feel that i have left them out in anyway you know i wouLdnt do that!it's that im kinda mixed up in my thoughts..and all..and no i dont just tell mich everything..we were just talking about old times like in pri6 and all..how i used to have "CAT" specs! ohh yeah i was bloody nerdy at that time..so i dont think u pple wanna know abt this kinda things right?
Hmm...LEONG did a nice revamp to her blog and it's pretty now..very pretty in fact..so whats the prob with the links!??lemme know ASAP!!!!!!..alrighty..jem's coming soon..she got lotsa things to tell me..i blog abt it if it's not private..OK IT'S KINDA PRIVATE..hahah anyway i had like cup noodles again!!for the third time inna row..my hair is soooooooooooooooo gonna DROP! out!haha..botak jo! wao! i just got a brillant idea..since jem bought cleo and they got a free sample of some lancome pErfume which is apparently some nice perfume my mom asked me to smell that time..so im getting it for her!for fun..maybe i wanna buy something since i didnt really treat them...shit i need to buy dad's present too!dammit!it means i need to go shopping!and DARNNNNNNN MY PPT test!!! SAT!!!!!!!die die die! *breathe in n out* *Hummmm* shittttttt.....
okay had lotsa thing to eat today...ate fishball noods like aft lunch ard 3+..i reckon that im a glutton sooN! hmm think it runs inthe family huH!??? *nudges vaL* haha..okay today's entry really short cos hmm actually i dunno also..i was just busy and all..hmm apparently im going out to town with jem maybe leong and me.. then i be shopping for my dad present!and my shirt n socks...and maybe get smth for my bro and mom... hehe..
>>If u Keep on taking, My heart u be breaking, So why do you do this to me..?
4:57 PM In the words of jo
Monday, May 19, 2003
Clubbing was fun but had lotsa problems..i mean it was a fun place and all but not my kind of place..beats me why..maybe it's just the loud music..and the dancing thingy..but ohh well..some bloody thing happen and it's has to do with me taking care of bags...some idiotic girl..mich leong n tham u should noe who the ASSHole is...she just ask her fren to chuck her bag with me w/o MEEEE knowing..then stace dragged me to the dance floor and carried everything..but i aint sure if i dropped it..or had it in the first place... so she diao me..as though i jus committed the world's hideous crime..i almost bash her face real bad..but since she was my fren's fren..i dropped the thingy..then came this girl who was pretty nice..the bad thing was cheryl asked her if she can mk me dance she wld eat her shoe..so she desperately made me dance..wo wo wo...but oh well..i din react..wad u want me do?i was like err..go away!??okay so i was freaked out..i so was..BIG timE!!!!!!!..then the music was blasting into my ear till it was buzzing..kau kau kau!then the next day i have eyebags that measure abt 10m..waoo!then mich had the outside joke wich totally tickled my funny bone to the core!!HAHAH!which side u wanna sleep?? u sleep OUTSIDE!hahaha!
Anyway here im at work in the afternoon because my bloody asshole rot in hell boss was unhappy when i jus take a half day for the whole of this month!like wad the !@#$%^&*!@#$%^ can!?? ugh im just so pissED!!!!!!like the bloody heLL!okay enough..talked to mich just now and she's bloody crappy..cheered me up alittle...haha tell u something lame..u noe me and jem are like sitting side by side..but we are like chatting to each other online!!!hahah..corny!!! okay today's really a screwed day for many people.. i dunno why but i think sometimes we have probs to wake us uP big time.. yeah it so does..
Piglet was such a sweetie today..he said the show chemistry sounded like me..u noe a girl who doesnt believe in love no more...and im a big fat tomboy and all..so yeah which is true..but he said i would meet mr right very soon..i dunno to tell him fat hope or yeah i wish..cos im like URGh..with pple..in general.. hey gen!!! yeah im startg to hate some human beings!! hahah!then he was really nice trying to praise me abt me and like how guys will come running to my door anytime..ohh well tt is if i start being girly.. then again..sometimes i just wish i was born u noe..girly..tt way i might be happier cos i dun see any guys liking tomboyish girls..it never will happen.. IM PoSITIVE ABT IT!
So we maybe having a class BBQ wich is kinda cooL! and piglet was bloody shock i went clubbing man! haha! he was like everyone went WHAT!!! cos i was kinda agst clubbing..i m but not inna bad way..i just hate the idea of eyebags and getting drunk..and how yr shirt reeks pf cigarette when it's not even u smoking.. haha did 31 forms today and maybe i jus do one more and tt's it..to hell with tt bloody asshole...
Mich:call me anytime..alright..u noe my reason for that...
>>Dont tell me you need me, if yr not going to stay, Make it real, Or take it all awaY!!!
