The first thing im gona say is OHHHH YAHHHH.... private joke guys..jem n aud if u wanna know abt the joke i let u in on it on monday! wahahah!anyhow..i got a nice studded belt..now i look like im gona engage in some SM activity with that kinda belt..woops..clean thoughts.. yeah that's my apparent new yr resolution thats urm apparently is NOT working...
But yest was a G.R.E.A.T day..i swear it's prob one of those i will remember this day for life kinda day.. oh yeah!nvm..u wont get it.. but ah well... it's like 9.31am n i have got 2toilets to wash.. n tons of studying to do.. die.. im so lagging behind.. n i have got no lunch currently... hmmm... tangyuan anyone? im kinda craving for it... shucks..
Anyhow...i shd quit wearg specs be4 the whole world thinks i lk shuai in it.. prob wear only for privileged people.. hahaha... crap joanne wee.. crap...
It bathes my skin, I'm stained in you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing within my heart
And I am barely touching you
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
9:30 AM In the words of jo
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Okay my exams are postponed so here's the new number of days for the scrolly thing...
If Heaven Could See My Point Of View...
The journey on earth is perilous,
The solace I found in you at first seemed dubious.
Why would HE bestowed something so right yet so wrong,
This is the question which I have pondered for so long.
Now I'm taking baby steps at a time,
To search for an answer that can so define.
The utmost bliss that burns brightly in my soul,
The beauty of life and it's meaning has just begun to unfold.
With you each day by my side,
No one can fathom the joy that one short minute gives me in your sight.
I may have to face a greater judgement when my time is up,
But who really cares when it comes to affairs of the heart.
If HE knew how difficult it was to fight temptation,
Then HE would understand my situation.
Nothing on earth can countervail,
The immense ecstasy i feel.
To be cared, cherished, appreciated,
And most of all to be loved by you & only
You
9:45 AM In the words of jo
Okay my exams are postponed so here's the new number of days for the scrolly thing...
If Heaven Could See My Point Of View...
The journey on earth is perilous,
The solace I found in you at first seemed dubious.
Why would HE bestowed something so right yet so wrong,
This is the question which I have pondered for so long.
Now I'm taking baby steps at a time,
To search for an answer that can so define.
The utmost bliss that burns brightly in my soul,
The beauty of life and it's meaning has just begun to unfold.
With you each day by my side,
No one can fathom the joy that one short minute gives me in your sight.
I may have to face a greater judgement when my time is up,
But who really cares when it comes to affairs of the heart.
If HE knew how difficult it was to fight temptation,
Then HE would understand my situation.
Nothing on earth can countervail,
The immense ecstasy i feel.
To be cared, cherished, appreciated,
And most of all to be loved by you & only
You
9:45 AM In the words of jo
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
Pardon my uncouth blog entry yesterday..i had a sudden rage then had to get outta me... today it's all nice n peaceful...
Went to gerri's hse with luke..n i must say her bed very comfy..i can just k.o lying on her bed for 5mins! gawd... now i wanna change bed!and her terris are sooooooooooo adorable...im getting used to NOT saying the word "cute"..i wonder why!*winks* her terris are like so awww..nice n small..mine's chunky and uncivilised..then agn.. civilised? jo..what were u thinking..them eating with forks n spoon..right.. pardon me...but well her rm's nice n cosy..unlike mine.. big n empty... then her wonderful grandma wonder if i was a girl or guy..righty..gerri..nxt time i go ur hse i stuff orange in my sports bra..lydat she wn be mistaken...then agn..she might think im a trans..oh gawd... keke...
Then headed to Holland.V for dinner..Christina came to meet us..her hair's pretty funky!! ey gerri..i m still amused but bewildered.. i was like !!?!??!?!? u know... but yeah damn funny when we kp communicatg thru the hp...n ur ear was toooooo small for my ear phones... whahaha..
So tell me guys..what shd i do? be the good person or be the villian.. i dreamt we were fine already..i think it;s a sign...becos i prayed be4 i slp saying Mother Mary, if that dream meant something..show me a sign..show me smthg i understand so that i know if i shd be help n be nice..n bam..i dreamt of that yest.. so there.. It amazes me..but well... God works in ways we least expect it....
U are my escapism,
U are also my reality...
I never want to believe..
How this cld possibly be..
For u alone,makes my life complete..
9:40 AM In the words of jo
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
Pardon my uncouth blog entry yesterday..i had a sudden rage that had to get outta me... today it's all nice n peaceful...
Went to gerri's hse with luke..n i must say her bed's very comfy..i can just k.o lying on her bed for 5mins! gawd... now i wanna change bed!and her terris are sooooooooooo adorable...im getting used to NOT saying the word "cute"..i wonder why!*winks* her terris are like so awww..nice n small..mine's chunky and uncivilised..then agn.. civilised? jo..what were u thinking..them eating with forks n spoon..right.. pardon me...but well her rm's nice n cosy..unlike mine.. big n empty... then her wonderful grandma wonder if i was a girl or guy..righty..gerri..nxt time i go ur hse i stuff orange in my sports bra..lydat she wn be mistaken... keke..
Then headed to Holland.V for dinner..Christina came to meet us..ey gerri..i think what u told me did ahem me lorh.. i was like !!?!??!?!? u know... but yeah damn funny when we kp communicatg thru the hp...n ur ear was toooooo small for my ear phones... whahaha..
So tell me guys..what shd i do? be the good person or be the villian.. i dreamt we were fine already..i think it;s a sign...becos i prayed be4 i slp saying Mother Mary, if that dream meant something..show me a sign..show me smthg i understand so that i know if i shd be help n be nice..n bam..i dreamt of that yest.. so there.. It amazes me..but well... God works in ways we least expect it....
Listen to the winds,
It's calling ur name.
Look at the stars,
they spell out ur name.
U make everything beautiful..
Most of all..U make my life complete..
Bless the Lord for ur existence...
For ur mere existence saved me frm the abyss of empitness...
9:40 AM In the words of jo
Monday, February 16, 2004
So there..hope my scrolly thing works, meaning i get people to freak out and start studying.. going to have "zhi char" for dinner with Jem, Cheryl, and Audrey! yay! then jem we can order Sambal stingray! tt time at Newton never really enjoy right! hahah... set... im counting down to 5.30pm!...
Some say it's good to change, at least im socialising more..in time to come i would have more friends and my social circle would be bigger.. but others feel that in doing so..i might choose to "chuck" my old friends aside.. im a lil confuse..so bear with me..
I seem to be the villian all the time, now i shd be labeled as heartless and a friend who only use people when they need you.. probably some have gone talking behind my back saying whoa lau now joanne got new friends then she dump her old ones.. well frankly..it hurts.. u nv knew how i waited at ur feet, waited till all ur friends r gone before u came back..it didnt happen once, it's twice,thrice and whatmore.. im not being calculative.. does it take alot of effort to pick up the phone and call? dont rebutt by saying why cant i do it..because i have been always the one doing that..i know you're still bitter over certain things..why? why? is it wrong of me to make new friends.. Is it fucking wrong to do that? is it a cardinal sin?is it something abhorent!HUH!HUH! u may think i dont care, not bothered..but really would it make a difference if i did? u never did bother to listen to my advice? always sweeping it aside when all i did was to be concern.. u think im naggy..u dont wanna heed my advice.. yet when i no longer dispense them, u think i changed and no longer care... hey u know what YOU tell me what u want outa me.. cummon...im letting u speak...
List what u expect of me..i will gladly do..no matter how many have thought it's plain stupidity of me to do so.. why do i even fucking care right.. who are u to me right? yet im still trying to put an effort... worse still WHAT AM I TO U..WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO YOU... dont tell me what i wanna hear.. u KNOW it's not true..reflect n tell me..what do u really treat me as... it's saddening to know i might lose you for gd.. i even had a dream tt said to help u.. WHY.. why would Mother Mary for no apparent reason come into my dreams to tell me to help u..i just dont know n dont wanna start being the jo who is like a puppet...
I even got u a gift but i guess it;s not impt anymore is it.. prob gona give it to anyone who wants them.. one day u will understand why i have become what im today... one day you will know that i actually cared but u took me for granted..one day u will know that my heart still aches knowing im losing u..im losing my grip... one day u will know that no matter what happens to u..im still here.. one day..one day...
It is the east and Juliet is the sun
Arise fair sun and kill the envious moon,
Who is already sick n pale with grief,
That thou her maid art far more fair than she..
10:15 AM In the words of jo
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Wise men say, only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you..
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
Cause' I can't help falling in love with you...
As the river flows, Gently to the sea
Darlin so we go, somethings were meant to be..
Take my hand, take my whole life too
Cause' I can't help fallin in love with you...
Alrighty..i slpt at 3.15am, got up at 6.45am to do what!? JOG!frigging jog oh gwad... went jogging with my pa, luke and gerri..and omg..i need to build up my stamina..i cant make it.. gerri ran like no tmr, luke uhh ran then stop then ran agn..so basically i was lagging behind at the end.. now im uhh blogging at luke's place while waiting for gerri and my bro to finish cat class.. yawn..i need slp...
Vday was uhh okay? i didnt stay at home in the end..yay.. watchd Gothika with Gerri,luke and Cassandra..well it's not bad..but not scary per say..well Luke freakd out for sure.. gerri and Cass screamd like no tmr too.. hahah.. me,being me.. was so calm.. and i checkd out the faces of luke and the rest..luke was pretending to msg as tho he had a million people to msg every time a scary part comes along.. then sudd his bladder was full and he has to visit the ladies.. hahah okay kidding... so anyhow.. im waiting to go for breakfast... yumyum...
i love this song..it holds so much meang... ahh...
We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start
Life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you
We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams could come true,
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's going to tear us apart
