Someone said this line n i intend to make tt person look bad.. haha im bias!
"You can be cold n lonely but being miserable is an option."
Okaye to be honest, this statement does hold a certain amount of truth in it, meaning at times you can choose not to be whiney or can choose to hold your temper or be paitent!But how right or how wrong can this statement be!? If being miserable is an option, then wont being lonely becomes an option as well. This sentence contradicts its fairly well intended intention. Being miserable,sad, angry, or lonely is part and parcel of human emtions. It is in fact something that we're endowed with. Comes with the package! Emotions once lost in you, is like losing you soul or being. In the process, you become nothing better than hitler or a mad scientist wanting to rule the multi-verse! Werent emotions suppose to help you "get it out of your system"? Havent anyone felt better after a good cry!?
If i chose not to be miserable, wouldnt i face the world wearing a mask of deceit because i devoid myself the chance to cry, the chance to show the human side of me?! face it, how can one ever remain happy 24/7!? even God gets sad n miserable sometimes. Of course there's no denying you chose this stance of not being miserable if you have a troubled past!meaning...you already suffered an OVERDOSE of misery. In that process, you learn to form a protective shield to guard you agst future setbacks. Some think of it as being noble, being strong mentally. I see it as a form of weakness, as a means of running away from reality. Why!? you choose not to be miserable cos it's like a flashback of unpleasant memories of your past, it's like haunting you again n again. It reminds you of your unhappiness, your pain, your hatred, your determination to never cry or be sad for anyone again cos you basically have a marred view of misery n happiness.
I admit i have an imbalance opinion about this issue, or rather this sentence in particular mainly because i dont have a troubled past, or i dont have something in my past which i choose to erase the minute the opportunity arises.But i damn hell knows what is like to be sad n miserable n have the world against you. To me, crying is a good way of letting out hurt or pained emotion that words cannot put through. Being miserable to me is part of the grieving process, cos in the end i learn to move on n be stronger, i dont see it as a sign of weakness. I do not mean to be miserable or sad or lonely forever, but everyone deserves a right to be in certain state of emotion when the need arises. IF you can choose to be happy and not shed a single tear nor be in any way miserable when your husband, wife, mother, father, grandparents, siblings or good friends pass away, you're either inhuman, too cold-blooded, or simply worth applauded at cos you have managed to devoid ur emotions n reach the state of enlightenment. Bless you. I feel being miserable is a lawful right of anyone who has a heart that's prone to ache when something sad hits you. If not.. prove me wrong...
My face lights up,
Whenever you appear...
1:31 AM In the words of jo
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Im confuse. One end of the spectrum says... jo, u shd stand ur ground, be a bitch n kinda insist ur way, after all it's already not right blah blah...n tt i know i would run to u if anytg..maybe im lousy at giving matured advice. or maybe i give really lousy advice to start with. Maybe im not inna situation that can fully understand the gravity of pain or whatever. But tt doesnt mean i dont care.. oh gawd.. im driving myself crazy.. i shd start growing up... The other end says... since already tt person has been so sweet to make up for it, why shd you harp on the matter. Aint it better to forget n compromise.. not like tt person meant it.. and cant you see res ipsa loquita! oh it means the situation speaks for itself.. but i need assurance.. hmm...im going bonkers... but i really dont wanna share.. i dont i dont!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='X
no matter how much you love me,
Baby i'd still love you more..
10:17 AM In the words of jo
Im confuse.
One end of the spectrum says... jo, u shd stand ur ground, be a bitch n kinda insist ur way, after all it's already not right blah blah...n tt i know i would run to u if anytg..maybe im lousy at giving matured advice. or maybe i give really lousy advice to start with. Maybe im not inna situation that can fully understand the gravity of pain or whatever. But tt doesnt mean i dont care.. oh gawd.. im driving myself crazy.. i shd start growing up...
The other end says... since already tt person has been so sweet to make up for it, why shd you harp on the matter. Aint it better to forget n compromise.. not like tt person meant it.. and cant you see res ipsa loquita! oh it means the situation speaks for itself.. but i need assurance..
hmm...im going bonkers... but i really dont wanna share.. i dont i dont!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='X
no matter how much you love me,
Baby i'd still love you more..
10:02 AM In the words of jo
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry?
I wanna be perfect.
I wanna be less clingy.
I wanna be more open minded.
I wanna be able to make my mom happy.
I wanna be able to stop the cold war with my mom.
I wanna be the most paitent person in the world.
I wanna be everything in the world.
I wanna be frigging rich [hmm who doesnt?the queen?]
I wanna be love by you only you forever you.
I wanna be the only one u give ur 100% attention to.im selfish.
I wanna be the most gd lkg person on earth.[wait..I'M! muahahha.]
I wanna be basically fussed over by you.
Aiyar! i want you....
I wonder why im not all of these, u still love me...
cher: im lazy to tag!anyway..i wont ever forget how u everytime come my class take my acc bk n how u put ur belt friggin low! hahaha! n how u like to run n hug pple but u run like a bull xia!oops...
Ange: wahh! u bung now??!muahahahah!
chomp chomp: u coming sch anot?!!!! pple lonely....
i have only love you so badly....tt i cry at night...
