now i really ustd the meaning when you used to say this "so what if they like me,i dont care, i cant ctrl what they msg right.i only love you" now i know what you mean when you say you dont care, cos i kinda am in ur catergory of i dont love you so go away cos i dont care. but aya..too late right. things always happens at the wrong timing. esp for me. when i realised everytg, it's too late. i read all the msges you sent me last time during my exam period and you knw what? you're fucking nice. really. then i thought back on the times you had ur exams and i made a fucking fuss about me being sick and how urm un-motivational i was during ur studying periods makes me realise, you know what, i deserve this punishment. i dont deserve you cos when you cared, i took it for granted. so the pain im feeling now is something like a retribution, to show the difference of when you do care for someone and when you totally gone. but well..whats the point of realisation, when you wont ever be back for me to make it up to you or when i dont ever have a chance with you again.
rmb your msg when you said, rmb this girl gave me this ring which says a chance with you and i intend to keep it and the chance is only given to her and no one else. those were wao times la. but the ring is off ur finger already. so..it also means my chance is gone and you knw what "orh bee good" paranoid summore la, dont trust summore la, get jealous summore la, get angry for dumb reasons summore la. you chase the one who love you so much and the one who been thru so much with you away. stupid foolish joanne nicole wee.. "orh bee!!" i deserve every inch of pain i feel now... stupid fool...
And I.... Darlin' I, I can't explain Where did we lose our way Girl it's drivin' me insane And I know I just need one more chance To prove my love to you If you come back to me I'll guarantee That I'll never let you go
Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can somebody tell me how to get things back The way they used to be Oh God give me the reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again, until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee So many nights I dream of you Holding my pillow tight I know that I don't need to be alone When I open up my eyes To face reality Every moment without you It seems like eternity I'm begging you, begging you come back to me
(Baby, Im sorry. Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done. Please come back home girl. I know you put all your trust in me, I'm sorry I let you down. Please forgive me girl.)
I'm gonna swallow my pride Say I'm sorry Stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me I want a new life And I want it with you If you feel the same Don't ever let it go You gotta believe, in the spirit of love it can heal all things We won't hurt any more No I don't believe our love's terminal I'm down on my knees, begging you please Come home
(Wanna build a new life Just you and me Gonna make you my wife Raise a family)
Can somebody tell me how to get things back The way things used to be Oh God give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again, til you come back to me I'm down on bended knee
5:49 PM In the words of jo
Thursday, March 30, 2006
this is such a nice song. oh my oh my. just turn upp the vol on ur pc.. wao.... attempting to learn on the guitar to eventually play it to you:)
thats when i love you.
When you have to look away When you don't have much to say That's when I love you I love you Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak or see you walk with two left feet That's when I love you I love you endlessly And when you're mad cause you lost a game Forget im waiting in the rain Baby I love you I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight You can count on me for life Cause that's when I love you When nothing you do could change my mind The more I learn the more I love The more my heart can't get enough That's when I love you When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes Cause the movie, it made you cry That's when I love you I love you a little more each time And when you can't quite match your clothes Or when you laugh at your own jokes That's when I love you I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date Or that look that you give when you show up late Baby I love you I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight You can count on me for life Cause that's when I love you When nothing you do could change my mind The more I learn the more I love The more my heart can't get enough That's when I love you When I love you no matter what That's when I love you
When nothing baby Nothing you do could change my mind The more I learn the more i love The more my heart can't get enough Thats when I love you When I love you No matter what No matter what today:
my stomach is so fucking full from indian food i swear i love anil. me pooja and him had this stupid wild attack and we went.. nope, not coffeeshop, but urm riverwalk tandoor restaurant. wah lau eh! we piled e food like as though there's gona be a war tmr or smtg.. wah kau! realise the chinese slang.. sorry la, the indian food is bringing out the chinese side in me. as pooja wld scream into my mini ears "CHENA KUEH".
so lets see, we ate, tandoori chicken, aloo gobi, dal, tau hu in the indian version, some ka ni na sweet BALLS thing, dont know how the hell u eat that la.. so sweet i think im high on sugar! and a gazillion more shits.. swear im so full i dont need to eat tmr.. hahah YEAH RIGHT...
so we were so ZENG (zonked out) after the meal we talked alot of rubbish and pooja tried in vain to seduce me with her crooked wink which urm failed. and according to her im fucking good at it. -double winks- then we talked about life love and urm how pooja was my JEALOUS GF cos i nv update her about certain pple. i mean hello......... not my fault right.... she's so perfy-fied now what... now she is urm scolding me as i blog cos she thinks i think im not giving her the attention she needs. i bow down to you perfy boy.. muahahah ... esp during pro-creation times. heheheheheh.
she is now instructing me what to blog. heheh.. anyways went for a swim this mrng, wao its good. but urm.. my goggles broke... ka ni nah.. oops.. chena side in me emerging again. but anyways..i badly need goggles. tmr..swimming here i come.... as of now.. shut up and relax... i need to give birth soon.. the chicken is jumping ard in my tummy and pooja gona give birth to urm triplets..... hahahahaha till then..fuck off my blog and study..... muahahahaha im mad... it's the fucking sugar...
8:15 PM In the words of jo
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
I'll have to wait But baby if you change your mind Don't be too late Cause I just can't go on It's already been too long But you could make me whole again
You just pass me by It still makes me cry i want you around
Lookin' back on when we first met I can not escape and I can not forget Baby you're the one
Time is layin' heavy on my heart Seems I've got too much of it Since we've been apart My friends make me smile If only for while You can make me whole again
Me and jem are going to be famous. okaye maybe not. but we composed a song thinking about the ones i we so love at the moment and then we laughed so damn hard about the retarted times we met each of our love ones. hers was damn lame, and so was mine. we laughed so hard and then our song was done..
it's fantastic. and if once we really do this cd and all. we will both give the first disc to the person we wrote for. wah. so sweet la us.. and you know what, i feel that i shouldnt hide how i feel now. it's prob loving you for afar now, but i guess thats the only way i seek solace. and i will just secretly miss you in my heart.
okaye now... back to family law... stupid lympnode swelling again. sigh. back to NUH...
10:51 PM In the words of jo
people will think to themselves. what would have drove me to do such insane things when i know i probably would get absolutely nothing in return. i think it's when i heard you cry, i saw the human side in you again. i saw you, being vulnerable and helpless cos you lost something that you couldnt have gotten back. it meant that much to you. i knew i had to get it back.
didnt want to tell you last night that i will get it back, cos i didnt want to make a promise i couldnt keep. prayed with all my heart i could find it and buy it back. and i did it.
I did what i did without any hopes of anything in return. i just wanted you to be happy. thanks jem for running around with me today esp with all the retarded planning. haha. what would i ever do without jem, pooja and harnie. gawd.
saw you smile again was enough i guess. at least i knew you're happy and i just smiled in my heart. . because i couldnt hug you to tell you everything is alright now and if anything just come to me cos i will do what it takes for you to be happy. i just smiled in my heart n carried on walking....
the door in my heart is still left open, will you want to come home, or do you wish to enter into the door of someone else's hrt...
1:17 AM In the words of jo
Sunday, March 26, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
i want you to listen to this song. i used to love this song like mad. and i never knew how it can be so relevant to me now. lyrics are below... please do me this favour.. just listen the whole song.. i know how you have the tendency to stop the song half way. i cant seem to tell you everything now. so this is the only way. this song is so sad.. but so sadly true as well..
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me But it's only now too plain to see, Brilliant disguise when you hold me And I'm free I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use But how could I have known girl It was time and not space you would need Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see There's a place in your heart where I used to be Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you Constant reminder of all the things you get used to Is there a chance in Hell or Heaven That there's still something here to build on Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see And a song in the words that you spoke to me Was I wrong to believe in your melody There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send I tried to call your old number But the voice that I heard on the phone I recognized but she told me the number was wrong There's a light in my eyes it's too bright to see And a pain in my heart where you used to be Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me...........................
5:22 PM In the words of jo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
i want you to listen to this song on my blog.put up esp for you. i used to love this song like mad. and i never knew how it can be so relevant to me now. lyrics are below... please do me this favour.. just listen the whole song.. i know how you have the tendency to stop the song half way. i cant seem to tell you everything now. so this is the only way. this song is so sad.. but so sadly true as well..
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me But it's only now too plain to see, Brilliant disguise when you hold me And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use But how could I have known girl It was time and not space you would need Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see There's a place in your heart where I used to be Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you Constant reminder of all the things you get used to Is there a chance in Hell or Heaven That there's still something here to build on Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see And a song in the words that you spoke to me Was I wrong to believe in your melody There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send I tried to call your old number But the voice that I heard on the phone I recognized but she told me the number was wrong There's a light in my eyes it's too bright to see And a pain in my heart where you used to be Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me There's a light in your eyes Did you leave that light burning for me...........................
