i have listened to no one but myself.did you try to do the same? maybe we shd meet and no one shd ever know we did. cos that way, no one will tell you what to do or judge you or me or what has happen to us and what will happen. sometimes pple manipulate the way we think and we end up more fucked cos thats not the way u and i think. true we were weary, but now we had a long break. no one shd tell us what is right except our own hearts. not ur best friend, not ur close friends, not your peers, not anyone but ourselves. so what if they were to condemn me, im willing to be crucified just to testify that no matter how much i have to suffer the pain of being struck down again n again, i will still not deny i love you. even if my friends despise me.or maybe you're already gone.. so tell me.. what do you want of me?
i know if i can make it till the end and perservere, some day i will be happier. feelings are so messed up and thoughts are all over the place. i come to realise that cig has made me forget you, the relief of not having to feel sad or depress or stay awake the whole night with you filling every space and void in my head. im going crazy if i dont help myself. i thought if i could distract myself with people and studies, i be fine. .guess it's backfiring on me. i have choices of two people who love me. but i cant seem to let you go, cos if i do, i might just make the biggest mistake of my life. i dont have the guts to risk it. this is the song u intro me, so fucking nice. it makes so much sense. dont you think. just want you to know, i will do it all over again, because i found my true love with you. are u still there with me?
Looking at your picture from when we first met You gave me a smile that I could never forget And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night Wrapped around your finger Always in my mind The days they blend 'cause we stayed up all night Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
All the doors are closing I’m trying to move ahead And deep inside I wish it was me instead My dreams are empty from the day The day you slipped away
That since I lost you, I lost myself I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
6:13 PM In the words of jo
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
This song is so apt. so as usual i like to add my 2cents worth of this song.. see the comments in purple. and jasmine kaur, i didnt know you can melt over me and think my smile is so nice.. im flattered. thank you.. ok my ego is secretly getting bigger and my head seems to be expanding. but haha thanks! -wide grins-
Have You Really Ever Loved A Woman
To really love a woman, to understand her, (very true, still trying to ustd) you gotta know her deep inside. (if she keeps to herself then how?) Hear every thought, (if she seldom speaks her mind?) see every dream and give her wings, (gave the wings but i think spoil) when she wants to fly . (okaye can try, if fail n die not my fault:) ) And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms (i always yearn for it leh) you know you really love a woman. (love a woman, hmmmm) When you love a woman tell her that she's really wanted. (if u did but fail how) When you love a woman tell her that she's the one. (always did n still do) She needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever. (if she dont believe ?) So tell me have you ever really ,really, really ever loved a woman? (i love myself) To really love a woman, let her hold you 'till you know how she needs to be touched . (ltr u kena accuse of being chee koh pek! and touchy how!!!!) You gotta breathe her, (the yummy perfume hehe) really taste her 'till you can feel her, in your blood . (wah relac la, bite myself ah) So tell me have you ever really, really, really ever loved a woman? (have la!!!) Oh, you gotta give her some space . (gave already,not working not working) Hold her tight, a little tenderness . (dont have A CHANCE WITH YOU to do tt) You gotta treat her right. (i damn hell did) She will be there for you .(dont bluff..okaye la..got... hehe) Taking good care of you. (tt of course have) You really gotta love your woman. (myself you mean?ohh no wait...) So tell me have you ever really ,really, really ever loved a woman? (sure hell did, still do, will always be.. urm.. does it count if it's myself? okaye stop lying joanne.hehe)
but it's still a damn nice song.. my oh my..im gona sing to someone already... but that someone not ready..aya... wasted... sing to myself... hurhurhur...
9:39 PM In the words of jo
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Communication. it's the first thing we really learn in life. funny thing is once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes. what to say or ask for what we really need.
At the end of the day, there's something you just cant help but talk about. Some things we just dont wanna hear and some things we say cos we cant be silent no longer. some things are more than what we say than what you do. Some things you say cos you have no other choice. some things you keep to yourself and not too often but every now and then some things simply speaks for themselves.
Like no matter how unglam you may look yst and whenever, i'd still love you the same way as how i love you from the start. it's hard to decipher why or how this has no change but with time one day you can come to see the altruistic love i have for you whether with you by your side or watching you from afar. ohh and i found the song lyrics for seize the day already. finally. haha. i added in something to change or rather make the song unique. it's in purple. read it... says alot..
It's empty and cold without you here I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past I found you here, now please just stay for a while (just try to be with me for now) I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done (i saw that smile 4days ago) We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you (i really dont!) Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life? (i really dont give a fuck if i know ur beside me and standing by me) So, what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again? (i almost did, i chicken out) So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see I beg don't leave me (you left, but im still begging..come home?) Trails in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you there Please tell me what we have is real
Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day (wont you give me one more shot, another chance with you?) I stand here alone (it's cold and it's getting lonely) Falling away from you, no chance to get back home (im lost, still am, till u come and take me home)
5:12 PM In the words of jo
Sunday, April 23, 2006
this is the nicest song on earth. pls listen to the whole song. it's so sweet that i can melt.. it's called till the end by the outsiders. thanks jem for intro-g me the song. this song took my breath away, it's so so nice n appropriate... wish i could sing it to you...really...
jem's tag: i'd support u totally no matter what and i hope one day u will get what u wish for everyday cause i understand ur position n how much it wld mean to u. and yes, dont bother abt the different views of others. no one can truly empathise cause ur shoes dont fit anyone e best but urself. in its what within that matters at e end of e day..
brilliant. she took the words right out of my mouth. jem thank you. it's what you feel that truly matters at the end of the day. why do we care what others think or feel or that they will chide you for the decisions you make. because at the end of the day, it's just the life of you and me. friends can be there, but not forever. it's rather trasient if u ask me. but with the one you love, thats when you start believing in the word eternity.
the song lyrics for till the end:
All this precious moments with you by my side Must be a gift from heaven That's holding me all night.
I dont know how i found you I'm thankful i have And that i have a love so true To hold to keep to share.
In the heart i can no longer hold inside All the love i used to hide I will always be with you till the very end
In this world there's no place i'd rather be you're my life, my soul, my girl And through it all I know you will come to see That you're the one till the end
All our friends around me They say you will be gone too soon Baby i'm gonna make them see We've found our way back home
