Because you're mine, i walk the line. You give me cause for love that I can't hide Because you're mine, i walk the line.
11:52 PM In the words of jo
Friday, June 23, 2006
sometimes when you wait for something for so long that part of you inside just dies away. you cant seem to be in control of yourself anymore. you let yourself be sucked into this vortex of emtions, then being spat out on the ground seething in pure excruciating pain. yet you choose to remain silent telling no one of the agony. in time you slowly prepare urself to have the ultimate courage to vomit the pain out through external torture till you can feel no more. then you feel yourself floating in limbo. the pain starts all over again. maybe its time. i have had enough of pain. tears cant seem to wash them away, neither can drinking or smoking. maybe its time. i promise i be quiet and subtle so no one knows. because no one really knows what its like to be in my place, no one knows what its like being the sad jo behind those smiles, behind the mask i so skillfully created. everyone thinks im sane, everyone thinks i should be strong, but everyone have not once step into my shoes of nails. every step i took every since i could walk was a step closer to finding you then it becomes a step closer to..................................... maybe im just a toy to be used over n over agn then im chuck to a corner. maybe i was just a past-time. maybe i wasnt worth tt much.
this songs reminds me alot of what pple take for granted. that i will always be there and i will always be the same. it's true you never know what you truly have till its gone. for my sake and for the sake of my soul, i must take this journey alone. . i was not meant to be with anyone because i only bring pain to the ones i profess to love.i was never meant to love. i was just meant to finish this journey alone. alone. alone.
Late at night when all the world is sleeping I stay up and think of you And I wish on a star that somewhere you are Thinking of me too Wonder if you ever see me And I wonder if you know I'm there If you looked in my eyes Would you see what's inside Would you even care? I just wanna hold you close But so far all I have are dreams of you So I wait for the day And the courage to say how much I love you .
3:16 AM In the words of jo
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
There's still a little bit of your face, I haven't kissed You step a little closer each day That I can't see what's going on KL trip[>]
came home from KL like finally. did quite a fair bit of shopping and what nots. all in all it was quite okaye.. so here's a few short updates of the places i went.. Times Square it has like 10 freaking stories but half of the place is not filled. so it's like 5 stories of shops and an indoor theme park. so there i was with my bro stoning at a bench and sitting cross legged on the bench. then came mr -i have nothing better to do- security guard. he walked over n blabber something in malay n i went WHAT? i wanted to say WHAT THE FUCK?fearing his vocabulary only limits him to the national language they used i said what. and again he blabbered smtg in malay. i gave him the i really dont know what the hell u talking then he pointed at my leg and i was like ohh. so he wanted me to put my feet down n not sit cross legged. i wanted to scream saying eh you got nothing better to do ah, u think u guard big fuck la, i did no wrong loser. then i rmb im not in singapore. so i went ohh ok. i swear if he was in singapore, i make sure he gets fired n then when i become police i walked pass him with my uni and give him the smug look and say eh fuck, rmb who you're speaking to. look at my rank n look at yours. rmb to speak to me properly or i get ur ass fried. okaye thats my imagination. then i saw pple smoking in the shopping centres n no one stop them. so i thot u rather ask pple to sit prissyly than stopping pple breaking the law. what kinda of mentality can. i was sooooo tempted to diao him even tho he's twice my size. actually if i did he cant even chase me. next.
Petaling Street it was maddnessly crowded.quite alot of things to buy esp tt jacket i wantd so much but didnt wanna ask my mum to buy la. i already bought 4tees and a bag.it was a funny sight how people kept running away frm the authorities cos they were selling fake adidas stuff. its too organise la, they will communicate thru walkie talkie can? i dont mind going there again to buy more things. haha.
okaye then the rest were just going around the shopping centres at KL.. all in all not bad la, cant wait till i go with pooja n the rest. okaye pics up.. take a look at how me n bro amused ourselves during the trip. and u know what i manage to catch matches on ASTRO.. power la..
