That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore On my knees, I’ll ask Last chance for one last dance ‘Cause with you, I’d withstand All of hell to hold your handI’d give it allI’d give for us Give anything but I won’t give up
unsettled feelings seems to be the norm for me these days. so are relapses. so there i was, taking a stick, lighting it up and chatting with Him above in the clouds.then i chanced upon this. then the priest at novena read the same thing out the nxt day. sheer coincidence or is there a deeper msg within?
Corinthians chapt 13; verse 4
Love is patient and kind. It is not jealous or conceited or proud. Love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable. Love does not keep a record of wrongs. Love is not happy with evil but is happy with the truth Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal the greatest of these is Love.
the one in bold is what hit me and made my heart do a triple flip. is it a silent message from HIM that i should trust and hang in there?!
4:28 PM In the words of jo
Thursday, July 20, 2006
tts what im wearing to work. haw haw. Aminmela lle i dreamt i kissed you. and my heart leapt. it was surreal,almost magical. cos you responded. then i got up. fuck dreams. note: all thanks to jamie goh my blog's in normal condition again. if without her help, my blog wld be like any normal blogskin type of layout.. so jem, thankssss so much!!!!!
When you yearn for something so bad, it keeps popping out of your head once too often that sometimes you just want to fast forward time so that the future can reveal itself. you asked if i had a new love. i wanted to tell you, how can i ever love again, i only fall in love once. and it happened with you.
Times spent with you seems to fly past me everytime. I wish i could just for a moment freeze it and live in that happiness forever. it's so so so precious to me. yet i have to mask my happiness and contentment lest you get the wrong idea and turn cold. its so much more fun now when i laugh with you, when i tease you and see tt silly face of yours. or when you diss me and see my broken face cos im always believing in your words and basically only care for ur comments. silly to some but it's priceless to me. i'd still dont get what cute face i got, everytime you ask me not to give you cute face, i will go huh? or when you think im OLD.. *roars* i hope you wrinkle faster than me. haw haw.
which i cld tell you how much more i treasure you now. how much more i ustd your needs, ur space, ur friends, ur ahem..sleep.. ur ahem food.. but then again why shd i trouble you with my thoughts when i was the one who let you down. no point regretting right. do you know how much i wanted to grab the damn freaking bag and buy it for you there n then. so that you no longer have saddness in you eyes but happiness. but... but.... anyway, lets move on to the next topic..
Mon is the start of my work in UOB and im happy to say im working with the JAJs.. im thankful i have jem n audrey to survive the torture everyday esp audrey with her sex talk everyday. ayoh. haha. and smoke breaks and beer breaks and teabreaks. hope it be as fun.
but its true, whatever i do , i must not give myself away....
