since no one decides to make any decision or give me any reason to stay i will make my own decision. just dont come running back to me when im done.
What makes someone a bastard. if you have seen someone who have lost every inch of their self-confidence but slowly n finally picking up the pieces which others have so conveniently strewn and trumpled upon. wld you be at least happy that for once in months i have never felt like this in a long time.
Do you know what is it like to love someone? to protect the person with ur life? to literally feel like fuck when the person puts you down constantly? to not touch you? to not respond? for you to feel the throbbing pain in ur heart? to love a person without ever knowing if you get anything in return?
i did. and i gave up being sorry for myself. i gave up being the wuss. i dont want to be treated like a fucked up trash. and u know what i wont be treated like one.
If you were mine I'd be your everything And you'd be the only thing That I would ever need (ever need) If you were mineI would tell everyone That you are the only one That I could ever want, Ohhhh yeahAll the words I sing about All the letters I write about The only thing I want to hear about So can I get closer to you
IF YOU WERE MINE.. IF
3:48 PM In the words of jo
Thursday, September 14, 2006
i knew what i wanted to blog. but i sorta lost the mood too. hmm.
9:59 PM In the words of jo
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
But when your lips touched my lips, it felt like I was kissing destiny Angel eyes with your angel eyes Will you always be there to hold me Angel eyes I'm satisfied I don't want to hear your story 'Cause I can see the thingsI really want to see
7 songs lyrics to sum up how i feel today dont know what to say anymore. so i thought of using the songs i heard today to describe it. but i was right all along. i could never have been so lucky. its time for a rampage.
Morning Other dancers may be on the floor Dear, but my eyes will see only you Only you have that magic technique When we sway I go weak When we dance you have a way with me Stay with me, sway with me (3hrs of listening to this and fantasizing everytime this few lines repeat itself, somehow i cldnt stop smiling..it was a just dream)
Afternoon Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl. I just need you you to know girl. I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises. I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone No Promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight
Evening/night We built it up, To watch it fall. Like we meant nothing at all. I gave and gave the best of me, But couldn't give you what you need. You walked away, You stole my life, Just to find what your looking for.
You're barely waking And I'm tangled up in you I somehow find, you and I collide I'm quiet, you know You make a first impression I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Without you can't stop the hurt inside When love and hate collide I can tell a million lies It would come as no surprise When the truth is like a stranger It hits you right between the eyes
Oh I miss you, you know And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?" Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough I'm just too far from where you are And I know just why you could not Come along with me This was not your dream But you always believed in me
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me And just forget the world Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life I don't know where Confused about how as well I just know that these things Will never change for us at all
11:14 PM In the words of jo
Monday, September 11, 2006
i look forward to every single msg you send. i smile like crazy when its you. but i think im living a lie. am i ever going to be good enough for you.?
i opened my eyes and you were there
11:30 PM In the words of jo
Sunday, September 10, 2006
scribbled a poem while i was at macs yst. nothing fantastic but since HL wanna read it, here it is.
Plethora of emotions acts like a potent poison threatening to engulf the already weary individual why must every path of happiness be like a fruitless duel i'm walking away from the troubles in my life the pain's so deep it cuts like a knife maybe fate desires me to dwell in solitude but why is my heart struggling with this unceasing feud sometimes its easier to run than to stay oh jo, u're turning into a cynic or so they say she's very much a mystery she's also very well the cause of this unsettled misery who can seem to quell my unceasing fears who will sit beside me to wipe these painful tears if i told you that you're the girl im looking for would it still be me that you'd still adore worlds apart but hearts intertwined if i look would it still still be your face that i find im sucked into this vortex of emoiton why am i always in this senseless delusion unable to alter this jaded soul again n again i get suffocated in the same hell hole Do i make you proud or am i deluded in my own little shroud the pain will always be hidden within the portrait that i painted probably was just only a dream. .
