there are pple like me who think their life suck to high heavens, then there're are pple who are dying from cancer. to be grammatically correct, she lost her battle to cancer but remained so positive. what the hell was i thinking. i should be grateful. if you're wondering what the hell was i reading, well i chanced upon this blog thanks to Chomp Chomp machine (Jasmine). Suddenly, you realise how you should be thankful you wake up everyday with no chemo or aches or fever to battle with. you only wake up to "should i fake mc and slack at home or should i go and have a mighty drink today or shit i need to get this assignment out"
In case ur interested you here you go,
http://shandysim.blogspot.com
she wrote this quote and you know what, it made helluva sense.
"Fear is finding fault with the future. If only we could keep in mind of how uncertain our future is, then we would never try to predict what could go wrong. Fear ends there."
Note to self: i will start work in 15mins..
10:48 AM In the words of jo
someone tagged on my board saying there's this Spore Ink event thingy this weekend. Googled and found out that it was at bloody expo.. gee.. having second thoughts about it now since it's so out of the way. I think i shall instead spend time surfing the net looking for my rosary tattoo. i'm ready to do another tattoo, im just extremely lazy to do the research on it and the type of shading i want. If i ever do a second tattoo i cant jump around in fel's house in tank top tees if im doing it on my shoulder since her mum will write me off as a hell seeker. then again, why bother worrying now.. siao.
I was pondering last night, about issues of fidelity. what really constitutes as being unfaithful. going on one to one dinner dates without letting ur bf/gf know, sending flirtatious text in which the other party would get mistaken, stringing ex-es along and constantly igniting their interest to prevent them from losing interest in you, doing things with no consequence as to how it will affect their spouses/gf/bf or doing the ultimate deed of sleeping with someone ONLY then it will be counted as im unfaithful.
Spoke to a friend last night and found out that she was looking for love. the simple kind of love where there're no wishy washy emotional baggages involved, no insane rules to abide by, no indecisiveness, no hiding and seeking. in short no unnecessary complications. and yeah she was right, we all were looking for that kind of love but it never seem to be within reach for us. a guy once told me "all humans are meant to be loved, its the principle of existence" but no.. sooo didnt end up with him.
Recently, boss did my long overdue appraisal, and i finally did well. i finally did something right and i get noticed for it and yay for me. but i couldnt share the joy lest it be like showing off, and family was too angsty for me to talk abt it. hmmmm. sometimes its so sad that you cant share something so innocent and simple because it gets twisted.
Chatted with another and realised im not misunderstood, im being thrown around like a rag doll.. if i dont listen to their instructions, they will rain their destructive anger on me. if im not happy, dont ever speak your mind, because they will be stubborn and stick to their point of view and then you still get shite for opening your mouth. you cant be upset, because in turn you become a liability. Act according to rule 1 to 10 and you will be assured of your happiness, if you dont, then get readyyyyyyy for cold war... seriously... rag doll material. but what to do right... sometimes these are lessons...
I just can't wait forever I knew that you were mine, when I saw you Though there's no way of me knowing you deeper You don't even know I exist
I never want to make things harder No, I never wanted anyone more But what does it take to get you just to love me You don't even know me at all
But it's true Whatever I do, I mustn't give myself away Even though, I know I could lose a chance with you All I know That you understand the things that, I just couldn't say And forever now, I feel you know me too
Been wanting to know you better Now my head just keeps on spinning around me Can you fill the void inside
