m'aimer pour qui je suis

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Today we say goodbye to Jolly, Shandy, Nemo & Dory

A few weeks ago, i saved them from the clutches of evil goldfishes in my dad's tank. They were swimming in fear wondering if they are gona be the goldfishes' tea break or dessert. So their abode became this pail and every single night i would 'sun tan' them in dad's tank so that they wouldn't be pale and sickly looking. And today, i think i added too much fresh water and they died. I tried my very best to care for them and felt so damn upset when i checked on them and all 4 were floating around dead. They were cute and they had names. I hope they are now happily swimming in heaven no longer fearing for their lives. Love you Jolly, Shandy, Nemo and Dory.

Random note: Checked with my uncle about a demo Mini one which is priced at 79K, he's gona help me check with his friend and the sales lady who isnt that friendly when i cannot fork out 97k. What was she thinking?I'm a 25 yr old individual not 52 yrs old. If all goes well, maybe, just maybe a very far fetched dream might become a reality. I have waited for a good 5 years, so no harm waiting a little more. As lame as this sounds, i shall leave it in the hands of the man above, and my trusty uncle and whatever will be will be (familiar phrase eh!).. No point chasing a dream if they can never be part of your reality at this point in time(:

Better than I was, more than I am
And all of this happen by taking your hand
And who I am now is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together, I'm stronger than ever I'm happy and free

Oh it's a beautiful thing, don't think I can keep it all in
If you asked me why I've changed, all I gotta do is say your sweet name

It's your love it just does something to me
Sends a shock right through me
Can't get enough
So if you wonder about the spell I'm under,
It's your love

4:22 PM
In the words of jo

Monday, January 11, 2010

It is but 8mins to 8pm and i have made a pact with myself to get my ass off by 8pm. I hope that should happen by the time i'm done with blogging.

These 2months have unraveled itself in the most mysterious ways. It is almost like living on the edge. One minute i was kinda lost and the next i was propped back up again. It is true to say that i was feeling shitty all over (not literally) but like i didn't know where i should be heading or what i should do with my life. Then i went on some deranged clubbing spree which left me exhausted. I remembered how on 5 Nov 2009 i went against my normal self and clubbed till some ungodly hour, died at work the next day but still met jem for drinks on Friday, mind you i had like 3hrs of sleep. And well, somehow i never regretted doing any of those, maybe i did when i got up on that Friday with a bloody heavy head and reeking of alcohol. eeeks! then things slowly fell back into place.

7 Dec 09, i got my tattoo done, 19 Dec i went to Jem's awesome party and borrowed her SLK, 26 Dec 09 i went and bid for my car no. plate, spent time with the family on 31 Dec 09, 1 Jan 2010 spent it with colleagues, jem and awesome singer. 8 Jan 2010 got my number plate. So far, everything seems to be in place. I'd like it to be this way, i like to be happy and to make people happy. So let's keep it this way shall we? Now to choose a car... hmmmm.

Don't get me wrong
If I'm looking kind of dazzled
I see neon lights
Whenever you walk by
Don't get me wrong
If I'm acting so distracted
I'm thinking about the fireworks
That go off when you smile
Once in a while two people meet
Seemingly for no reason
They just pass on the street
Suddenly thunder showers everywhere
Who can explain the thunder and rain
But there's something in the air..

7:52 PM
In the words of jo

Sunday, January 10, 2010

What has kept me amused on the 2nd week of Jan 2010

So, on Wednesday morning, after a nice hearty breakfast (as if, i had only coffee but still!) with an awesome individual, i came into the office to find a package sitting prettily on my desk

And there she was, Lyssa, my new ipod(:

Making her camwhore with her package

Comparing Lyssa's sevelte figure to my distintegrating baby, but that broken baby served me well, 3 yrs to be precise.. now she can retire in my display cabinet.

And then i saw my lil monkey sticking out her legs for the entire Havelock to see.

Okay, ignore the water colour alright, i was gona wash them! Here's my handsome Pip!

That news was the best way to end my friday. like totally!!

That's Jessica, Rachel, Myself and Michele. 13yrs ago, we were all tiny fuckers in the same pri school, how cool is that?

I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget
Nothing ventured nothing gained
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.
And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified..

1:02 AM
In the words of jo